There’s one thing I deliberately left out from my book Journey In Search of Truth, as it needs special attention. But I would suggest reading my book first and then move onto this chapter because it might be confusing for some if they haven’t read a single chapter of my book.
Although, I have listed almost all of the events leading to my search for truth in Chapter: My Journey In Search of Truth.Just to summarize, I shared some of the most critical events in my life out of which my mother’s death was most shocking and heartbreaking. I also talked about one of my German language professor who shared his life story, which was inspirational and helped me look at life in a unique way, I even dedicated a whole chapter to him.
All of the events I shared in the above chapter helped me move closer to start that journey, but In this chapter, I am going to share a single event that really shook me to the core and afterward I started looking for answers about life, world, and existence.
Let me first give some background info, there was one of my mates and uni class-fellow Usman Ahmad. He was one of the most brilliant students I have ever seen, and also one of the most active sportsmen. He was like perfect in everything, you name it. sports, academics and social activities, he was at the top. It looked like he had a really bright and promising future (in terms of materialistic gains). He had the potential to be the next big celebrity which majority looks upto.
I met him in the first semester, we were good friends and had a great time together both in class as well as in hangouts and also playing football and video games.
Now, I’ll talk about the exact event which was really pushed me to start my journey in search of truth.
After the second semester, in summer holidays I received a call from another friend and he told me that Usman Ahmed died (he was swimming in a pool, and somehow he went to depth and died), just to point out, he was a good swimmer as well and at that time he was with his friend and also a coach. Obviously, I had seen much worse and sad deaths including the death of my mother but this was something different I still haven’t find out how, but that’s how life is, Allah guides whomever He Wills and He guides by whichever way He wants. For some, a simple sentence or talk could help them realize reality by the help of Allah alone, while for some, it takes years and years of research and pondering. While there are others, who study science and see signs of a creator in front of their eyes, yet are too stubborn to believe, following those who even reading Al-Quran and reading truth are unable to swallow and believe and for all of these scenarios we end up saying, Only Allah guides whomever, He Wills,, and by whichever way He wants. There is not a single creation who can guide other, nothing in the heavens and earth who can guide me or you, if Allah doesn’t want to guide us and if Allah wants to guide us, nothing in the heavens and earth can stop you from believing and accepting the truth.
Coming back to the event, after I heard the news of death I got so scared for the first time in my life like that , I started questioning myself that Usman was of my age , he might have thought of doing so much in life, enjoying, earning, partying etc but look now it’s all over for him and the things which youth do in ignorance, what if I was in his position and I haven’t done any good in life either. Life filled with stupid things which youth love by seeing majority. I haven’t even found Islam and was also away from any type of religion and used to ignore such people and religion (But I never mocked anyone, any sect or any religion/color/caste to this day because Islam doesn’t allow this type of behavior).I was scared in a state that I was shivering with fear , and it pushed me a lot in starting my journey by the help and mercy of Allah alone. After that I started the page Islam – Practice n Preach – PnP where I would share what I learn then came website islampnp.com, then came book which includes all of my thoughts and observations about life and world and purpose of life and finally to this website zainsra.com.
Depression and stress
I also searched for topics like “Depression and stress in billionaires” and it’s so interesting.
Once you earn of this world, you’re blank. There’s nothing left, so either you earn more and spend more or start an illusion of helping humanity (which is a good thing tho) but you have zero belief in the afterlife, and once you get bored by the life and you know there’s nothing after this, the only option left for you is just plain suicide. (unless you start to think about the purpose of life and life after death)
See the death of Robin Williams (Famous “Comedian”) and many suicidal deaths of celebrities which majority look up to and want to be like them.
There’s one quote I would like to share from one of my favorite comedians apart from Rowan Atkinson:
“I hope everybody could get rich and famous and will have everything they ever dreamed of so they will know that it’s not the answer”
Think wisely and act accordingly.
In the end it will be only your actions and deeds.
May Allah forgive Usman and all our sins and guide us all towards right path and grant us all a place in His Paradise after we depart from this temporary world and protect us against torments of grave and hellfire and make us live and die as true Muslims and grant us wisdom and knowledge that would bring us closer to Him alone. Ameen